Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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